March 8, 2010
by Terrance on Monday, 8th March, 2010Morning weigh-in: none lost, none gained. Or, perhaps, equal amounts lost and gained.
I am determined to get a certain amount of work done today, but I am remarkably prone to distraction. The day is not fruitless, but not as productive as I had hoped. There are several tasks coming up that will function as pointed sticks: they must be done, and they must be done by me.
Thoughts revolve around: life and death; past, present and future; old friends and older friends.
I was surprised, while walking and thinking, to discover that I have not fully let go of something I previously believed to have been let go of. What? Let’s try again: I let it go. I believed this letting-go to be complete. Today I discovered it was not. There is a mechanical aspect to this: I see a picture, I read a name, and…not-so-much-letting-go. My buttons were pushed. There are some strategies for working with this, and I was advised that I would find that these strategies useful for a time, and then they might be dropped, and then I might feel the need to resume them. And so it has come to pass.
